How I got Fat

Its a new year. Welcome, to the newyear! Its been way too long since my last post, but I, of course, have good excuses. For one thing, I broke my spine in three places. But dont worry, Im totally okay. And I was going to write a blog post about that, but then I got too busy. Grad school, a full time internship, a part time internship, and raising a 1 year old (cat). Life as a single mom is hard, yall. But in all seriousness, life gets busy, and you become a robot, while messing up your adrenals, and functioning at a zombie-level (thats a real thing). Alas, its winter break, so now I have time to write what Ive been wanting to write for months. Lets get down to it, ya?

This post is titled what it was. This isnt an attempt to get people to compliment me, or say Oh no, girl! Youre not fat! You rock those curves. Im not looking for positive reinforcement, or validation. Its just the truth! I got fat! Heres the catch: its not because I stopped being Paleo and gorged myself on pizza and ice cream all day, everyday (mmm pizza). Its from a culmination of the medical issues Ive been working really hard with my functional medicine doctor to fix. Ya know, things like Adrenal Fatigue, and PCOS. You can reada little bit about that here. Why did I get fat? Because I was diagnosed with Hashimotos Disease and Hypothyroidism.

My thyroid isnt working properly. That bitch.

Hashimotos is an autoimmune disease in which your immune system attacks your thyroid gland, which causes inflammation, and messes up your biochemistry. More specifically, it negatively affects your thyroids ability to produce correct, and optimal physiologic functioning levels of TSH, T3, and T4 (these are all hormones produced by the thyroid).

Hypothyroidism develops when your thyroid is under-active and doesnt make enough of those hormones that it needs to metabolize your body and its needs. Basically, your metabolism is shot to hell, and your body cant send energy to every other part of your body. In laymans terms, you get fat and have no energy, and everything about your everyday life becomes a constant struggle.

So, its not my fault I got fat.

And its not my fault that my hair started falling out, and I became more emotional, and less motivated to do anything other than sit on my couch and binge on Netflix. Its not my fault my once impeccable memory is now as good as that of a goldfish. Its not my fault that I cant get out of bed in the morning despite sleeping for 10 hours the night before. Its not my fault that despite bathing in coconut oil, I could not help my dry skin. Its not my fault that none of my clothes fit me. It certainly isnt my fault that simply looking at a steak caused me to gain 25 pounds in the last year and a half.

Its not my fault, and it all just really sucks. How did my body get so messed up? How long have I had this and just didnt know? For the last 9 months, I have been working with my Paleo doctor, and she is amazing. You can read about my first visit with her and how she began to positively change my life, here! I first came to the doctor, because I just knew something was up with my body. I had a whole list of symptoms but every Western medicine doctor I went to said I was fine. I knew it in my gut that I wasnt.

Flash forward 9 months, this is where we are at. I have been treating my Thyroid, Adrenal Fatigue and PCOS with herbal supplements (Thyraxis PT, Adaptocrine ,and Progestaid) and I have seen significant results bettering my hormone levels and adrenals. However, my thyroid still isnt working properly. Most people know that I am pretty anti-pharmacology. I think it is good in certain contexts, but I am not one to start taking medication for something I can fix, at the root, with diet and lifestyle changes. However, I have been very patient and the symptoms I have been experiencing because of Hashimotos and Hypothyroidism are really effecting my self-esteem and quality of life.

Anyone experiencing the same issues will understand. Its been horrible. Not feeling like yourself in your own body, carrying around extra weight on you that you have no idea how it got there. Forget about dating, because if you do happen to get a date, youll wonder if the guy is a chubby chaser, or youll wish he had seen you before you got sick with this. Ya know, before you got fat. Or people will stare at you because you only wear yoga pants and over-sized hoodies. They might even laugh and point. Or people might think youre lazy because you cant get out of bed and have no energy to go out on Friday nights (who really goes out anymore?). But they have no idea its because your hormones are messed up and your thyroid stopped working. People dont know, and they probably dont get it, either. But there comes a time when you want the symptoms to go away and you want to feel like yourself and be comfortable and at home in your body.

So, after a lot of research and thinking, I have decided to go on a natural thyroid medication derived from dessicated pig thyroid called Throid. Theres a chance I may be on it for life, but at this point, the pros far outweigh the cons. The point of Throid is to help my thyroid produce more T3 and T4 so that it functions normally. Hopefully, this does the trick and I can go start feeling human again.